GOD.

who ever said that the journey in keeping up with GOD is easy, i will still say, i don't believe you.

 life in itself is crazy. like a rollercoaster full of ups and downs. people come and go even those who chose or we chose to stay either hurts us or was hurt by staying.


my journey with GOD was not an easy road to take. yeah i pray to HIM even as a kid but the real score in following HIM had been a bumpy ride.


He is up there and I am down here. i know things happen for a reason but there are some questions that are left unanswered. there are times when i needed HIS guidance and I still feel clueless. There are times that i know i am blessed but i still feel empty.


there are times when i wanted to talk to HIM BUT i feel so small. who am i to talk or demand to a BIG GOD?. how can i ask SOMEONE THAT POWERFUL to help someone as weak as i am. how can i ask someone as RIGHTEOUS as GOD to forgive a sinner like me...


well. like any movement goes, all it takes is a little step...
these are the steps that i formulated (based on experience)


1. acknowledgment- of an "unconfessed sin" that is lurched in our hearts. this is the blockage to our prayer time with GOD.
2. acceptance- that we did something wrong and that we have to face the consequences of our actions.
3. repentance.- saying sorry and being firm in not doing it again.
4. forgiveness- savoring the moment of talking with GOD and knowing better on how to avoid sinning.
5. living again.- it is written in the bible that when we genuinely asked for forgiveness and repented, GOD throws away our sins to the deepest part of the ocean. if GOD did that, who are we to find faults against ourselves again?... 


well. i dont know where to start or if this is the best way to start but NOW IS THE RIGHT TIME TO TALK TO GOD. :)


HE knows you. your hopes, your dreams, your aspirations. your failures your achievements, your strengths and weaknesses. HE KNOWS YOUR NEEDS AND HE WILL GLADLY MEET THEM... 

flight syndrome

dear stephen.


sa mga panahong katulad nito okay lang na andyan ka at andito ako.
hindi ko nga alam kung bakit meron na naman akong flight syndrome. 

hiling ako ng hiling pero kapag andyan na, ayaw ko na.

maybe i'm too scared. scared that i'll do something wrong to scare you away. maybe i'll be too much that you'll get tired of me. maybe i'll be too demanding that you will not be good enough. either way, im just scared of falling in love and losing you somewhere along the way.

so if you feel that i am getting cold, please do not go but keep me warm under your embrace.

if you feel that i am getting too clingy, please do not go but hug me so i will feel secured.

 haha. shocks stephen. wala akong masabi. maybe i just wanna say i miss you pero i dont wanna see you. hahaha. its just because you live your life and i live mine. i don't know when i'll see you or if i'll be able to hang out with you but i know i want to.


i have a lot of fears but i know i'll manage. haha. shocks. ngayon lang ata ako naging ganito. hahaha. weird. 

enrollment: law student style.

i only have a few clearance in my hands, if your name is not on the list, proceed to room 127.

once upon a time, walang kwenta ang clearance kasi alam yung na yung grades mo bago mo pa to makuha. bukod dun, wala ako masyadong pinoproblema- grades lang kung aabot sa dean's lister o sa laude.

eh ngayon..... 


mismong clearance na wala parin ang grades mo. next sem mo pa malalaman kung anong performance mo. ang iaabot lang sayo ay isang trial sheet.


trial sheet- andun ang list of subjects na pwede mo ienroll. walang grades. walang passed or failed. only the trial sheet. 


kapag binigyan ka nun, you are still in the race of becoming a law student. kapag wala, di ka muna makakaenroll kasi titingnan pa kung may bagsak ka. kung lumampas ka sa 8 unit rule, dead ka.


kung nabigyan ka ng trial sheet. hindi ibig sabihin nun, okay ka na. problema mo pa rin ang QPI mo na dapat umaabot sa cut off. kung hindi. you are still DEAD.


so ayun. 


isa ako sa pinalad na mabigyan ng trial sheet. nakaenroll naman ako. pero it is not an assurance na solb na ako.


ano ba naman tong pinasok ko. :)


hindi ko rin alam. basta ang alam ko. masaya ako sa law school. 


thank you LORD. for the privilege. :)

sembreak with my GIRL best friend. :)

one day a girl nicknamed bujoy 

wanted to eat @ shakeys

of course she ate with her

bestestfriend BOCHOGS

 and her kapatid ANNE

AND SO WE HAD A GREAT TIME

this is my best-est friend 

ELAINE

 AKALA MO LANG JOKETIME...

PARANG BANGAG LANG...

 MATARAY

 EMO

 BANGAG

MATAKAW

 PERO BESTFRIEND KO YAN

SHE ACCEPTS MY WEAKNESSES AND FAULTS

 SEES MY WACKY SIDE

 AND LETS ME LEARN FROM MISTAKES

YAN SI ELAINE

 MALAKI

KORNI.

SABOG

CONSERVATIVE

POSSESSIVE

EMO

PERO.. LOVE NA LOVE KO YAN.

SYA ANG AKING ANSWERED PRAYER..

 LORD,
i don't know what I did for you to give me a bestfriend in elaine but i will be eternally grateful.
she is my alter-ego. she is my answered prayer. thank you Lord.
bless our friendship and lives. we had been through ups and downs and yet i know you will guide us through it all. in JESUS name. amen

dear mr. busdriver

dear mr. bus driver.


before you push that pedal to the maximum possible speed. 


remember that you are not alone. you have passengers hoping to get home safely. upon entering the bus, they know that no matter how much they complain and no matter how late they will be, they can never control the speed because you hold the steering wheel and the pedal. They entrusted their lives to your hands, do not waste it by letting your ego drive and race with other motorists.
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remember that you do not own the bus. the company that you are working for owns it. it is not your investment but their hard earned money and high hopes for profits. in economics, that is what you call trickle down effect. you make the rich, richer their employees get richer too in a sense by bonuses, benefits,etc. (at least in theories). 

lastly, remember your family. hoping to see you as soon as your work is done. they depend on your salary and of course your presence as a dad, a brother, a son and a husband. when you get charged and convicted of reckless driving resulting to multiple homicide and physical injuries, you go to jail. same thing when your included to those who died in the accident. either way, you deprive them of a life to be spent with you.

so there.

love,
a bus passenger

love triangles

bakit ba laging pinapatay ang isa sa love triangle? kailangan ba talaga mawala ang isa para makapili ka?

thanks google

napansin ko lang ang trend sa mga telenovela: Katorse hanggang iDOL. pero sige, wag tayo magdwell sa telenovela, let's talk about love triangles.


love triangle. 
of course hindi circle, kasi kung circle- walang problema, two people just reciprocate the love. 
hindi square dahil hindi naman ganun kaextreme ang pagiging complicated na mahal mo ay mahal ng iba na minamahal din ng iba na nagmamahal sayo. 


triangle. ang mahal mo ay mahal din ng iba. at wala kang magagawa kundi tanggapin ang pipiliin nya.


tatlong tao ang involved.
ang nagmamahal
ang minamahal
at


ang pinili..


i think yun ang problema sa mga telenovela eh. bakit nila pinapatay ang isa sa mga choices? 
nawawala ang element of choice. nawawala ang element of consequences.


sa totoong buhay, hindi naman lahat ng hindi napipili namamatay eh. 
at hindi naman lahat ng pipili eh makakapili dahil na-eliminate na lang bigla ang choice diba.


wala lang. diba. why deprive other people the right to be hurt and be stronger after. why deprive them of the lessons that they may learn. ganun talaga ang buhay. 


kung ikaw ang piliin nya, then be thankful for the opportunity to love and be loved.


kung hindi ikaw ang pinili... here's the thing. 


stop thinking that you are not good enough for that person.
you are good enough. its just that maybe its not for that person.
or maybe this is not yet the right time for you two to be a couple.


whatever the reason, take this as an opportunity to enjoy life with people who love you like family friends and of course GOD. :)

sembreak with my guy best friend. :)

Sa wakas sembreak na. 

in pictures.

a law student named Joy once dreamt of sembreak.

after studying day in and day out 

with her bestfriend accompanying her every Tuesday

 

sa Starbucks to study... or ministop..

 sa wakas sembreak na!!!

and so they bonded :) 

 and goofed around.

 til its time for them to go home and sleep. :)

but before parting ways.. the best of friends first

PRAYED.

AND thanked God for

the friendship and the bonding time together.

and of course,

for giving me a guy bestfriend

who is

patient

spontaneous

wacky

talented

etc. 

no reposts please. :)

Sa wakas sembreak na.

Masaya ako.

Nagcelebrate ako ng "sa wakas sembreak na" simula 10 pm hanggang 7 am ng umaga.

Parang tagal ko na atang pinangarap yung

Magiistarbaks akong walang babasahing kaso o libro kundi manood ng dvd
Magmcdo para lang bumili ng twisterfries at hindi kape
Magministop ng hindi mag-aaral
Magpuyat para lang makipagkwentuhan
Maglakad ng hindi nagmamadali

At higit sa lahat pumasok lang sa uste para magpicture at tumawa.

Panalo diba. Pero mas okay sya dahil kasama ko ang bestfriend kong nagcelebrate nito.

Sabi nila imposible daw magkasama ang babae at lalaki ng magdamag na walang ginagawang kalokohan.

I guess we defied the odds. Dahil tumagal kaming magkasamang masaya sa kwentuhan at tawanan.

Di ko alam kung paano ako natagalan nitong mokong na to lalo na sa crazy law school life ko pero by God's grace eto kasama ko parin sya. Hahaha

All i can say is thank you Lord. Di naman lahat nabibigyan ng ganitong experience eh. Hindi lahat nagiging aware sa blessings at hindi lahat kuntento na sa meron sila.

Hugs.

istarbaks.

sa isang daang piso.

wala parin akong istarbaks na kape pero meron na akong siomai rice, manggang maasim, iskrambol, isang oras na facebook sa compshop, isang set na photocopy at pisbol at kikiam. 

minsan naiisip ko bakit nga ba ako gumagastos ng higit sa isang daan para sa mainit na kapeng lumalamig din o malamig na kapeng natutunaw din. 

pwede namang kumuha ng baso at magtimpla ng nescafe o kahit ano pero eto ako, di mapigilan ang paghigop sa napakasarap na white chocolate mocha hot. 

minsan iniisip ko kung bakit ba ako nagpapakatali sa gusto ko kahit mahal. kahit magastos. kahit mahirap imaintain. mawawala din naman to eh. pero mapipigilan ko nga ba ang sarili ko?. parang hindi. (at parang hindi na yung istarbaks kong kape ang tinutukoy ko.) hahaha. :) 

okay naman ako. mas okay na atang ganito. 

Mutual understanding

Em yu.
Mutual understanding.

Magulong usapan.
Matinding uncertainty
masakit sa ulo
morons in unison

mapagpaasang usapan.

Magulo ang emyu. Actually nakakatawa ang stage na yan. Binigyan ka ng karapatang kiligin pero hindi ang karapatang magselos at magdemand. Gusto ko nya pero hindi enough para maging kayo. Gusto mo sya gusto ka nya. Alam nyo yun pero ayaw nyo pa.

Pero mas mahirap ata yung gusto mo sya pero ikaw di mo alam kung gusto ka nya. Mababaliw ka kaiisip kng bakit ganun ang mga ginagawa nya. Di ka naman pwedeng kiligin kasi di mo pwedeng lagyan ng meaning. Kasama mo sya pero di ka pwede magselos at magdemand.

Nakakaloka tong pag ibig. Napakadaming uncertainties. Masarap makipagpatintero sa nararamdaman pero masakit tuwing natataya at nadadapa. Pero what can we do but to live our lives as what we are supposed to. Pag nadapa edi tumayo. Kapag napapagod edi magpahinga. Kapag nasasaktan edi magmahal.
We are created to love because our Creator is
love himself. So wag ka na magtaka kung bakit ka nagmamahal. Wag ka ring magtaka kung bakit ka nasasaktan. Duh. Nagmamahal ka eh. Meron bang naligo na hindi nabasa?

ex stories.

you can turn friends to lovers but you can never turn lovers into friends.

kung sino mang nagsaabi nito at hardcore na naniniwala dito. AKO ang living proof na hindi. 
exception ako sa general rule. exception kami. hahaha. 


hindi ko alam kung paano nangyari o kung paano nagsimula maging okay ang lahat pero isang araw nagising na lang akong di na ako nasasaktan at masaya na akong mabuhay bilang single, bilang ako. isang araw biglang naging okay na ang lahat para samin to catch up with each other. isang araw bigla na lang akong tumigil na umasang magkakabalikan pa kami. masaya ako. masaya sya. masaya kaming hindi kami. 


sabi nga nya we are better off as friends dahil we have longer conversations, we have lots of laughs and less expectations. okay kami. 


one thing we learned is that maybe we gave too much love before kaya matagal bago kami nakabangon. sobra kaming nagmahal na we gave up almost everything to make our relationship work and when it didn't we just collapsed. we were lost. 


ako. i was lost and found by God. (this is another story and another blog entry)


so ayun. we had our hours long phone conversation and it was worthwhile. 


masarap matulog na wala kang regrets dahil alam mong madami kang natutunan.
masarap sa pakiramdam na nagmahal ka at kahit nasaktan ka, at least natututo ka. it made me stronger.


there is a right time for everything. I am blessed that GOD found me when i was broken kaya eto ako ngayon. buong buo dahil sa pagmamahal Niya. :)

paradox.

pwedeng payakap?


ive been like running in circles and i don't know what i want.
actually i do know what i want but i also know i can never have it.


para kasi akong nasa gitna ng mall, nilapitan ng isang mayamang ale na may dalang Hermes bag. pinahawakan sakin saglit at iniwan ako. yung mga taong dumaraan sa harap ko feeling nila ang yaman ko. yung mga kaibigan ko akala nila akin yung bag. so lahat ng tao ineexpect na masaya ako kasi nasa akin yung Hermes bag. pano naman sila maniniwalang di yun akin eh hawak ko nga diba. kami lang nung bag yung nakakaalam na hindi sya akin. oo nga. hawak ko nga sya, pero yung laman ba pwede kong pakialaman? hindi diba. hanggang hawak lang naman ako eh. maya maya kukunin na rin sya ng talangang nagmamay ari sa kanya. wala na akong pakialam kung magpapathank you man o hindi, ang alam ko lang, umasa akong sana akin na lang yung hermes bag. sana ako na lang may-ari. 


siguro. sa lahat ng bag na meron ako. yung hermes bag na yun talaga ang iingatan ko. aalagaan at pahahalagahan.  tagal kong hinintay eh. pero ayun nga. hindi naman kasi sya sakin. 

hey GOD

hey GOD.

i heard this song and I thought of you. 

its amazing how you speak right through my heart
without saying a word you can light up the dark
try as i may i can never explain
what i hear when you dont say a thing.

the smile in your face let's me know that you need me
there's a truth in your eyes that saying that you'll never leave me
and the touch of your hand, says you'll catch me whenever i fall
you say it best, when you say nothing at all. :)

all day long i can hear people talking out loud
but when you hold me near
you drown out the crowd
try as they may they can never define
what has been said between your heart and mine



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diba GOD. you are the sweetest. alam ko namang mahal mo ako eh. :)
sometimes I wonder how I survive being alone for years when all my life i never wanted to be alone. i always wanted to have someone who would hold my hand and who would hug me but then parang since I have known you better (nung naging Christian ako) parang natali ako sa pagiging single. 

not that im blaming you ha. pero diba GOD. aminin na natin, boys do come and go. may magpaparamdam tapos mawawala. may nandyan pero bigla kong iiwasan for some weird reason. may gusto akong balikan pero huli na ang lahat at may gustong bumalik pero sablay na. may mahal ako pero may mahal na iba. at palagay ko may nagmamahal sakin, yun nga lang alam nyang may mahal na akong iba... at na Christian ako at sya hindi. 

GOD. love was never out of my mind. i know you created us, humans out of love kaya ganun pero diba. parang minsan, naooverwhelm kami sa idea ng love that we forget its tangible effects. 

i remembered when i was still in a relationship, parang there was a time na gusto ko na maging free, nasasakal ako, napapagod, nafufrustrate, ayaw ko na. so i was given that freedom. eto ako single. hahaha.. 

ngayon namang single ako, i miss the feeling of taking care of someone and being taken care of exclusively. diba. sweet ako whatever pero hindi parin exclusive. iba parin kapag meron kang someone special at mutual ang feeling. haha.

pero GOD. i realized i should never question your timing. baka nga naman bigla mong ibigay eh di ko naman kayanin mga demands nya at hindi nya rin kayanin mga demands ko. sayang lang. sayang lang kami. tama ka. ayoko na ng isang daang frogs na ikikiss para lang magkaprince charming. hintayin ko na lang sya dumating. :)

at isa pa. Lord. tanda mo pa ba yung pinagpepray ko dati?... GOD. surrender na ako. eto na ang ballpen, di ko na aagawin. ikaw na ang magsulat ng lovestory ko. nakakaloka. nauubusan ako ng ideas at nakakafrustrate dahil alam nating dalawa na hindi ko kayang idirect ang buhay nya. kaya ito. ikaw na Lord. 

haha. so ayun. ito na lahat ang nasa isip ko. glad its out.

Hindi porket nasasaktan ka titigil ang mundo.

That's the funny thing about life. It moves with or without you cooperating.
Pero can we really talk about love without talking about the pain? May nagmahal abng hindi nasaktan? Parang wala. Nasasaktan ka kasi mahal mo pero sana hindi ka nagmamahal para makasakit. Kasi kung ginagawa mo yun. Selfish mo pre. Perverted at twisted yung mind mo na magpapaasa ka tapos sasaktan mo lang. Wag ganun.

Well anyway. We all have to learn in one way or another na ang love parang kanta lang yan. Kahit anong praktis sa birit, sasablay at sasablay kung di para sayo ang kanta.

Kahit anong pilit. Kung di pa tamang panahon o kaya naman di talaga sya para sayo wala talaga pre. Tigilan na natin to. Hahaha. Yeah right as if natuuuruan mo ang puso mong wag magmahal. Hahaha. Parang sinabi mo na rin sa lungs mong wag huminga. Haha.

Okay. Hindi ako okay. Hahaha. Ayokong pag usapan pero sa wakas i got the answer to my prayers. Now i know na bakit ba ang manhid ko. Haha. Abangan ang susunod na blog.

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dear stephen.

this is another letter for you. obviously bothered ako sayo. haha. di kita maintindihan and hindi ko rin alam kung anong gusto ko. ayokong mag-assume pero alam kong there is something special between us. hindi normal yung mga ginagawa mo para sakin at alam kong kahit ikaw nawiweirdohan ka sa sarili mo kung bakit mo nagagawa yun pero diba.. parang ang weird na ganun ka sakin pero may gusto kang iba?...

ang weird pero masaya ako. okay ako sa kung anung meron tayo. we are keeping each other guessing. keeping each other close and yet so far. kaya sige. let's enjoy the thrill of the hunt. let us enjoy this moment.

masaya ako. sana ikaw ganun din. habang tumatagal okay tayo eh... kaya lang minsan natatakot akong ako lang ang masaya o ako lang ang may chorvah effect. haha.

baka kasi sakin eh effort na yung ginagawa mo pero para sayo wala lang...

haha. pero di kita masisisi, ikaw yan eh. simula pa lang naman alam kong talo na ako.. mahal na kita eh..

mga lalaki, di ko ma-gets

actually di ko magets ang mga lalaki.
hahaha.

yung iba akala mo ayaw sayo, suplado effect, gusto ka pala.
yung iba akala mo gusto ko, effort effect, trip ka lang pala.
yung iba akala mo okay na kayo, flavor of the month ka lang pala.
yung iba akala mo kaibigan mo, may hidden desire pala.
yung iba akala mo may hidden feeligns, friends lang pala.

diba diba.
nakakaloka. minsan di mo alam kung san ka lulugar.
magplaysafe ka sasabihin pakipot.
makipaglaro ka sasabihin malandi.
makigo-with-the-flow ka sasabihin manhid.

wala lang. hahaha. there are some things in life that makes me wanna shout....
DARNA. :) (wala lang. echos lang)

dear law school

...................
dear law school.

mahal kita. simula bata pa ako, pinangarap na kita. highschool pa lang bukambibig na kita at nung college, pinapangarap na kita. pero bakit ganun. ngayong kasama na kita, parang nasasakal ako sa mundo mo. gusto ko mang mag-enjoy pero parang hindi ko kayang sakyan ang mga demands mo. I am trying my best pero bakit ganun, parang laging kulang. Hindi naman siguro sobrang taas ng standards mo... hindi ko lang talaga kaya panindigan. Mahirap pala magmeasure up sayo lalo na kung katulad kong baguhan at hindi pa handa.

mahal kita. ayokong mawala at mahiwalay sayo pero bakit ganito. parang walang patutunguhan tong oras na binibigay ko sayo at itong mga effort ko.. ayyy wait. nag eeffort nga ba ako sayo? sapat na nga ba ang oras na binibigay ko? parang hindi. parang inuuna ko pa rin ang sarili ko kesa sayo. feeling ko nga...

its not you. its me.

oo. anak ng kalbong tupa. ako nga ang may problema. bakit ba ako nagrereklamong pinagbabasa mo ako ng makapal ng libro at kulang ang oras eh nung panahong dapat nag-aaral ako eh, natutulog ako o nagpapakasaya.

hay law school. mahal kita. at alam kong mahal mo ako, kaya mo ako tinuturuan.

now i know why GOD led me here. do discover more about myself and to discover what matters most in my life..

love,
bujoy

pagod na ako

one finals exam pa lang i felt pagod na pagod na ako.
totoo ba to. grabe. parang waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

haiz. wala lang. gusto ko lang matulog. magpahinga. magnet.
pero kulang ang buhay kung di naman ako mag-aaral.

alam ko wala namang madali pero di rin naman ata dapat sobrang hirap.

i need motivation..

ilusyunada

minsan masarap maging ilusyunada. masarap lagyan ng meaning lahat ng nangyayari. masarap umasa. kaya lang.. di naman lahat ng masarap sa una, masaya talaga.

bakit ko ba lalagyan ng meaning eh hindi naman ako dictionary.

bakit ako mag iilusyon, di naman ako direktor.

pero hindi rin naman masamang minsan ngumiti. na minsan isiping sana nga...


hindi naman lahat nararanasan tong nararamdaman ko o tong mga nangyayari sakin.


(kung di mo alam nangyayari sakin, tanungin mo ako one time. hahaha. sasagutin ko naman.).


okay na. okay na ako. ayoko na mag-isip ng kung ano pa man o maghanap ng wala. 
thankful na ako. :)

thanks.

Dear Stephen.

Thanks for letting GOD use you so I could keep my sanity while being in law school.
I guess He knows that I needed someone like you, patient enough to understand and gentle enough for rebuking. Talented enough to show me that I do not know everything and imperfect enough to remind me that its okay to commit mistakes.

Thanks. You are one of the best things that GOD has given me. :)

welcome to law school

kahapon ko napatunayang nasa law school na nga ako. palibhasa nasanay ako sa college na kapag sinabing 3 hours ang klase, usually 2 hours lang o kung parepareho kayong tamarin nung prof, 1 hour and 30 minutes lang nagbobolahan pa kayo. samantalang dito sa law school, kapag sinabing 3 hours, 3 hours talaga at mag eextend pa ng 30 minutes to 1 hour. hindi maganda ang feeling na straight yung klase mo at wala ka pang lunch.

make up class sa Persons (5 units) 1-3 pm, nagextend pa si Dean Aligada (my mentor) ng 3:30 eh nasa labas na si Atty. Sandoval (my inspiration na magmemorize at maging codal baby) for our 3-5 Political law class (4 units). panalo diba. so in short, hilong-hilo na ako, tatawagin pa ako para magrecite. sa wakas, di ko na natiis. bahala na. 5:30 nya na kami pinalabas para sa Crim law class namin (5-8) kay Justice Sandoval (mahal ng 1A yan).

di na ako nakatiis. lumabas ako at pumuntang jollibee. mahaba pila at namimilipit na ako sa gutom. huli kong kain 9 am. pamatay. walang poise kong kinain ang jolly hotdog habang tumatawid ng Dapitan at papasok sa Main Building. 

walang poise poise sa taong gutom. :)

after class. ayun. nagpaphotocopy pa ng marami ulit babasahin para sa FINALS sa poli bukas.

reviewing for the finals is another story. (wag nyo akong gagayahin. hahaha)

buti na lang. sa gitna ng pagpapahotocopy ng napakakapal na babasahin, may isang text na dumating. (actually madaming text. haha). isang answered prayer. :)

tumingin ako sa langit, sabay sabing: "Lord, thank you. thank you talaga. okay na ako. okay na ako." :)

sabay nakangiting sumakay ng jeep papuntang P.Noval.

alam na. :)

P.S. it amazes me on how GOD knows the desire of my heart. minsan tinatanong ko sa sarili ko if I really deserve this favor and grace from Him. Para kasing everytime feeling ko nahihirapan na ako, He would always send me someone to make me smile and to make me feel special. Thank you Lord. :) I love you. 

paano na lang ako magsusurvive Lord, kung wala ka.

sige, maghapon tayong magtitigan. :)

oh ano. maghapon na lang ba tayong magtititigan dito?
gusto ko lang ipaalala sayong hindi sapat na iniisip mo lang ako. gumawa ka naman ng paraan para maparamdam saking pinapahalagahan mo ako.
lagi ka na lang busy dyan sa iba mong inaaral, nagrereklamo ba ako? hindi. kaya nga wag ka mainis kapag nagdedemand ako sayong pansinin mo naman ako at pahalagahan.

konting oras lang hinihingi ko sayo, di mo pa ako mapagbigyan. kaya sige na, tama na yang pag-iisip mo at pag-aalibi. tama na yang mga excuses mo.

GAWIN MO NA AKO!

Nagmamahal,
-LEGRES FINAL PAPER.

If you love someone...

If you love someone. Set him free. If he comes back set him on fire. Hahaha

seryoso na.
If you love someone you dont set tht person free because he or she is already free in the first place. Wala namang nagbago nung minahal mo sya. Di mo naman sya naging property.

Magkaiba parin kayong tao at di mo kontrolado buhay nya.
That's the essence of love. You are free to go but you still choose to atay kahit masakit kahit mahirap kahit nakakapagod at kahit may ibang dumating.

Habang single ako napapag isip isip kong mas mahirap pala kung nasa relationship ako. Kung ngayon pa nga lang na nasasaktan na ako sa suntok sa buean kong love story ano pa kaya kung kami na tapos bigla syang mauntog at marealiZe na din nya ako mahal.

Mas masakit malamang di ka nya mahal, compelled lang syang pasayahin ka.

So ayun. Haha. Random thought.

True love is giving that person up so he can find his own path.
Who knows, baka katatakbo nya, sakin din bagsak nya

Wahahaha. Pag nangyari yun, magpapapizzaparty ako. Hhahaha

bye Drew, Hello Stephen

bye drew, hello stephen.

DISCLAIMER: Drew and stephen came from Taylor swift's songs, Teardrops on my guitar and Hey Stephen.

So Drew is the bestfriend that you have loved for years now. You are close, sweet and all that but he loves another girl. This is the common heartbreak for every girl (or guys out there). Sometimes it gets me thinking on why do we usually fall to those who are close to us. Is it because we get to know them better that makes us fall deeper or is it because we are not given the opportunity to be sweet or close to the ones we really love or admire.

well, i guess the second thought is rebuttable. We all have a choice. maybe falling for that someone is not a choice but staying in love is. We could have easily chose not to be this close and exert an effort to be close to whom we really love but here we are, not that we are stuck but we are enjoy sticking around with this person. 

It is like, effortless to be sweet and close. Its like the magic of love makes us do things unexplainable and unexpected for this person.. the only catch is that, well you are bestfriends. you may be the best but you are only a friend.

maybe that's why loving Drew is difficult. One moment he is sweet, enough to make you think that finally, he can see me and he loves me. One moment, he'll tell you he loves another girl, totally not like you. Loving Drew is like a ride in a roller coaster, full of ups and downs, loops in between. No assurance, just companionship and friendship. Its like being in a mall and someone asked you to hold her very expensive LV Bag where people walking my assume that its yours. The sad part is you know its not yours and you are just asked to hold it for a moment. I love you Drew but what can I do but to accept the fact that, its not that you are blind and you can't see me... its just that, you saw me and you decided to look for another. 

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hello stephen.

hey stephen.

i can give you fifty reasons why i should be the one for you. all this other girls well they are beautiful but would they write a song for you.

loving Stephen is sooo easy. He stands out in the crowd and i have never seen someone like him. I got the chance to be close to him and years after, the magic never faded. I still love him despite everything. Right now, I guess i learned to skip the drama that he does not love me as much as i love him but a little punk in my heart tells me to hope for the best. the little punk tells me to enjoy the moment and be free to show how much i love him. its not right to count or measure love because no one can justify the measurement. 

Drew and Stephen is just one guy. One guy that I have loved for years. He didn't change, our relationship is still the same. What changed was my perspective of our relationship.

we all have a choice. to be absorbed in the never ending emoness of not being loved in return or simply enjoy the moment nd be thankful of being given the chance to be close to the ones we really love. 

and so i love you Stephen. I know you know it already and we are happy the way things are. This makes our relationship special. :)