kinakamusta mo ang love life ko?...

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may pangarap ako.

dahil depressed ako. eto ang mga bagay na pinangarap kong gawin sa buhay ko na umaasa akong magagawa ko pa. hahaha.

1. matuto mag Bass guitar. - bata pa lang ata ako pangarap ko na to eh. di lang ako natuto dahil ah.. dahil sa napakaraming rason. kapag nakikinig ako ng kanta, hinahanap ko agad yung tunog nung bass. naamaze kasi ako na apat lang yung string nya pero parang kulang ang tugtugan kung wala sya. haha.

2. makagawa ng isang libro. - bata pa lang din ako pangarap ko na to. Highschool pa lang ako, nagbalak na ako. wala lang akong kilalang publisher. ipupublish ko na ang 30 plus ko na poems na feeling ko nung panahong yun maganda. hahaha..

3. Rumampa sa isang fashion show. wahaha. oo. yung magmodel for FULLER sized women. gusto kong ipakitang hindi porket XL ang mga damit mo, wala ka ng karapatang rumampa. hahaha.

4. umikot sa buong mundo. as in, yung tipong magmumukhang sticker book ang passport ko sa dami ng bansang pinuntahan ko. hindi dahil pasikat ako pero dahil gusto ko makita ng personal ang mga binabasa ko lang sa History books dati. Dream destinations? Rome. Paris. Greece. Egypt. Jerusalem. Great Wall of China. Japan. ayan. haha

5. magdrive sa NLEX. tumigil sa gitna at magPicture lang, gabi hanggang umaga. - amazed na amazed ako sa ilaw at daan dun eh. tuwing dumadaan kami dun. iniimagine kong andun ako sa isang tabi, nakaupo, nagpipicture.

6. magworship lead sa mga bata. pakiramdam ko kasi, may fulfillment na makitang may nagwoworship na mga bata. basta. mahirap iexplain.

7. magtayo ng Pastor's Wife Ministry. di ko lang alam kung magiging pastor's wife ako. pero gusto ko lang na magkaron ng Women's fellowship sa kubo ng magiging bahay ko. wahahaha.

8. makapunta sa isang isolated na lugar, overlooking Metro Manila ng madaling araw. magsisisigaw lang ako. hahaha. pero kung may kasama ako, ayus. masarap mangarap sa ilalim ng mga bituin. hahaha.

9. mag-kapamilya. shocks. pangarap ko to. siguro dahil pakiramdam ko fulfillment ng isang babae ang maging nanay. hahaha.

10. syempre ang maging full-time wife. take note: FULL TIME. kasi ayaw ko ng commitment. hahaha. ayun. well. only GOD can change me and He is working naman in my life. yun lang. hahaha. sana maintindihan nyang mahal ko ang magiging profession ko kaya suportahan nya ako. hahaha

oh. nagtataka ka bakit wala ang pagiging lawyer??? syempre given na yun.. Law Student na ako eh. :)

when going gets tough...

they say that when going gets tough, the tough gets going.

but what if, the tough one does not know where to go. the effort will be futile. life will just be revolving around the same problems. ikot ka ng ikot, wala ka namang pupuntahan. that's the worst part of being in a journey. being lost.

lost, in a sense that you are stuck in the middle of no where, with no one to talk to, with no gadgets to help you, and with nothing. lost. empty and alone.

so how will a tough person get going?.

i don't know how exactly. all i know is that at the time that i am completely lost and i began to admit that i was lost and that i need help. Someone came and found me. He gave me water- to clean me from all the dirt. He gave me food - to replenish whatever is lacking. He gave me love- to remind me that I was never alone and never will be.

it is just that... He has to let me wander off so I can be reminded of my priorities. He let me be on my way to remind me that whatever I want will not necessarily make me happy. He had let me be broken, so He can make me whole again.

He is my Jesus. my sweet Jesus. :)